dear faggary,

of course as soon as i regain computer access i get all depressed and mood swingish.
i need to like. throw my computer out the window.
because this shit is annoying.
i'm so sick of it.
as much as i love all my (online) friends and everything, i
really wish i didn't have to deal with them.
i'm happier as a socially inept recluse.
the stress of dealing with friends and relationships is ridiculous.
especially with such low self esteem and high sensitivity.
honestly, the days i get on the fucking computer are the days i cry myself to sleep. because it's so nerve wracking. and.
everything's on the internet. all i see is stuff i'll never have, never achieve. it's rubbing it in my face and it knows it.
fucking myspace too, you can only exist on myspace if you're pretty.
but i wanna use it because shocker i have like two friends who do.
and itd be nice to keep up with them so i can figure out when theyre going somewhere and invite myself because i know they wont.
holy fucking balls im stupid.
i'm gonna go to bed or something.

that's all, i think.